Invisible

Invisible
Bathing this raw wound in salt tears
The acid ache of loneliness eating away at the core of me
Used when you need a guinea pig, a scapegoat, a laughing stock
Thrown away when there's nothing left of me
Demeaning, Humiliating
And yet
I fight for this
This "priviledge"
Because you acknowledged me
If only for a minute
Even though I know it will end in pain
That I will be burned again in the end
I cant help but grab hold of the spark
And beg that maybe PLEASE this time
Become the fire that I need
The fire that I need to be happy
not only to exist but to live
But once again I'm burned and left in pain
Blistering pain as the spark fades out
I'm left in the darkness again
Total darkness as I bathe my wounds in saltwater
And beg for the end
Either of the pain or of my life
By now I don't care which